WHAT IF?

What if I told you that I'm different.

You think we're all the same but what if I told you that my kind is different.

What if I told you I'm not the person you think you know.

What if I told you that I'm not alright.

I mean I don't feel dead but I'm not alive.

What if I'm here but somewhere amid depression that's where my mind resides.

What if I told you that the way I think is different because I don't see any good in people.

What if I told you that I'm not a normal person but I only follow the adage that says 'when in a monkey kingdom, you act like a monkey"

What if I told you that everynight I have suicidal thoughts with a knife in my hands.

What if I told you I'm in prison in my own mind and I'm the one who convicted myself with my own mind.

What if I told you that everything you think I love is everything I despise even when I know it'll hurt me but all I do is smile

What if I told you this is a suicide note and I'm writing this on my skin with a table knife.

What if I told you that I was never proud of being alive but I really don't want to die.

And what if I told you that being dead is better than being alive.

What if I told you that I never loved you but you were just there for me to pass time.

What if I told you that everything I've been said was a lie and I used you for my own personal feelings.

What if I told you that you're always right and I'm always wrong.

What if I told you that I never even existed but an imagination which you desire to come to past.

What if I told you that your memory of me is all nothing but a dream.

What if I told you that I was never real.

What if I told you this is the last I'll be writing because my pen is tired of being alive.

ImpeRial Pen

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