DAUGHTER IN HER UNCONSCIOUS STATE

*DAUGHTER IN HER UNCONSCIOUS STATE:*

Dearest mother,

How do I make you forgive me?

How do I make you understand?

Remember that forenoon you angrily appeared in my school

cautioning the tutor that made your little angel cry?

I was barley five, but I remembered what you said to me,

You vowed never to let a pin hurt my finger.

You vowed to always protect me from the heavy rain and the scorching sun.

You vowed to always walk by my side even when I’m wrong.

You vowed to always put my interest first even when it’s unimportant.

This is me, mother,

the woman you’ve made me be.

It was true you warned me.

You know I’ve always loved ‘n cherished you

And I want you to know that It wasn’t

intentional having you go through this tough road alone.

Mum, I just wanted to be the best mum,

I just wanted to be like you.

I just wanted to protect my child like you.

I lost my mind when the test showed I couldn’t have her,

How could it be I had what I never wanted?

And all I wanted was what you wanted out of me.

I wanted a beautiful angel, walking right by my side.

And I want you to understand, mum,

I was blinded by the love I had for Nkemdilimi,

I wanted to build a family with my honey,

I didn’t want to deny him the prestige of a happy home.

And if there is one wish I’d ask for,

Is that you forgive me for being a selfish tortoise;

Forgive me for making you believe I took her

out upon my last minute sorrowful agreement.

Forgive me for not seeing the pains of you losing me.

Please, just forgive me for being so obstinate and disobedient

Forgive my second papa for my mistakes,

I accept I made him play in my dirty games.

And if there is a second wish I’d ask for,

Is that you forget me and move on, mother.

You said she’s as shiny as I was,

And I want you to make a super star of her.

Take her as your baby Dianne, mummy.

My shoes are still shiny, you said,

Wear them on her, mummy.

I want you to know that I didn’t leave you void.

Believe and do this, mum,

So that I can live on with the satisfaction of being a great mother.

I’ll tell my co-sleepers here how sweet you are.

Farewell, mother.

I’ll tell daddy also, how I indeed inherited the

Unconditional love of a mother from you.

Thank you,

Thank you, for being my mum.

Thank you, for choosing to love me unconditionally.

I’ll always love you, mother.

© Blossom.O

26/10/21